Most people can’t validate themselves so they seek it in arbitrary things.
When I first started doing yoga, I would keep track of how many days in a row I practiced. It made me feel strong.
But after a while, the number started creating an expectation. I would think to myself, now that ten days have passed, I bet my body will fatigue.
Sure enough, the next day I would leap out of bed with searing calf cramps and race to the fridge to suck back waters until the pain subsided.
So much for feeling strong.
Reminds me of Dara Torres, the oldest swimmer ever to earn a place on the Olympic team. She said the water doesn’t know how old you are.
Funny what’s possible when we stop making gods out of numbers.
What numbers are holding your practice back?
Scott Ginsberg is a writer, daily practitioner and work study volunteer at Bikram Yoga Park Slope.